Thursday, April 20, 2006

okay I changed abit of our layout.
It looks a bit weird..
So I hope you guys will bear with it for awhile.
Will edit it more later.

Anyways
I have been good.
Had an sms session with nuriah the other day.
Although we are in the same class,
I really do miss her alot.
She asked how I was and how was my love life.
I wasn't ready to answer her at that point of time,
So I guess I will now,

Yeah.I am dating.
BUT.
really, I do not wish to get deeply involved.
Wouldn't say that I do not have feelings for that new guy in life,
Cos I do.
I do have feelings for him.
But not enough to go on into a relationship.
He is definitely NOT the usual drop dead gorgeous guy I usually go goo-goo ga-ga over,
But yeah.we're dating.
And NO.
we're not in a relationship.
Casual dating.

We were in a relationship for one point of time,
But it lasted only for a few days.
I really do not wish to get into a relationship.
It's rather stressful.
The fact that he kissed me on the cheek yesterday had me in for a shock of my life.
Seriously!
I didn't expect that.

When he tried to hold my hand the other day,
I really got scared.
I was so scared I wanted to cry.
I felt all alone and so scared.
People say I was just being paranoid,
But really,
I am really not prepared for all this.
I do not wish to move on too fast you see.

Not that I cannot let go of my horrible past,
But I do not wish to force myself into something I do not like
and suffer in the end.

and Yes nuriah,
the abovementioned guy is Yoshikawa Hideo Ernest.
our big classmate.
HAH.

For now,
I have made my decision.
That is be single and be merry with you guys.
No offence to anyone,
But I am not ready to get tied down in a relationship.

All those jealousy and emotions are rather taxing on me.

Please do not breathe a word of this to anyone.
Nuriah.esp to our classmates.
thnks =)
And the reason why I had the password thing is because I do not wish to let others know about this.

I hope you guys understand.

Let's meet up to celebrate Farna Tall's birthday shall we?
Shall we meet up on 13 May 2006?
We can catch a movie and have dinner after that.

Any probs, do tag on the board.

Love ya
Siti Norazni Zakaria
muacks.sayonaraz

A nakajima said Hello at 4:45 PM

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