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Monday, March 07, 2005 everyone noes how i honour promises soo much..unless its sum lame promise..maybe i can juz forget it...but it reali hurts u noe.when someone promised me something tt relates to the matter of the heart,helping me or doin some job tt i gave to a person..within a week.i got my heart broken a hell loads of time.by 2 person whom i trusted most.whom i tot were mature enuff to tell me and update me with details on a few things.but sadly,both of them oni told me the details when i PROMPT them too.i guess if i didnt,the story will be unknown until dunia kiamat pun i dunno.wad the heck.i'm not findin faults with them but..within a week..i got hurt badly by both of them...especially the second person.i got hurt soo much tt i broke down...i cried for 3 days wonderin why she didnt tell me the truth earlier...wonderin why she didnt tell me the truth when i prompted her weeks earlier..i noe she meant well.so tt i didnt get hurt.however...i guess she didnt realise tt her act(of not tellin me the truth) hurt me MORE..MORE.MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE. To the second person. i told u abt my feelins and crushes bcoz i wanted u to noe.i wanted to noe whether ur ok with it.i did it against the warnings of many.when u first said OK.i believed u.however..i had the benefit of doubt weeks later.HOW?coz so far...nobody can lie to me and nuriah.for we will owez noe sooner or later..i wanted sooo much tt u will tell me the REAL truth soon yourself.SADLY.i had to prompt u to tell me the truth..you didnt wan me to get hurt...in the end..i still get hurt..worse at tt.i'm still wonderin why..WHY didnt u tell me earlier??dun give me the excuse tt u didnt wan me to get hurt..please...coz like wad i wrote earlier,i still get hurt..much much much much more..all bcoz u didnt tell me...and the fact tt u promised me weeks ago tt u will tell me if both of us encounter the same prob we had months ago...call me emo or extra or wadeva.i dun care coz i'm expressin my feelings.you may say tt i'm lettin my emotions take control of my heart...but unless i dun express my feelings,i'll CRY MORE.i guess i'm feelin a bit better now.. anger is not the word to describe my feelings.its more of DISAPPOINTMENT. A nakajima said Hello at 1:19 PM *** |
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