Monday, September 13, 2004

hey jus wanna drop in and say that i am gr8ful for yr msg my dearest Paris... and to Lindsay.. ure still my pweety sweet gurl...

now i feel so heartbroken. like im giving everything up... and im trying to let my love "Sha" go, but i cannot. i am constantly crying in my heart. it feels so weak, so fragile... sometymes i wonder why im doin all this... it realli pains me to the core! n jus thinking of him makes my heart break and shatter into many white pieces... if not it makes a sickening hard twist that makes me jus want to cry in pain... i hate this feeling! i wish i cld tell him how i feel for him so much, but sometimes i feel that i shouldnt bother...

this realli describes the way i feel for him... its like titanic's jack n rose.. while rose was in tha plank of wood and jack holds her hand and says "i will never let go" and rose asks "you promise?" and jack nodded, shivering. den, he DIED. and rose tried to wake him up but he never got to wake up, or even say goodbye, or a simple "i love you"... im in that sticky situation, where im rose and i have to let jack go... i love him with all my heart and i dont want to let go!

all i manage to do now is to sit in pain, crying silently to myself, surrounded with icewater and almost dead...


A nakajima said Hello at 1:46 AM

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