Saturday, September 11, 2004

hey gurls... yah here....
been thinking lately... and i feel like ginving up my studies... like what is the whole point man? dat pig said dat da poly doors will close and i am now guiltily here, nuah-ing~!
i feel so bad and useless. i feel that it too late for me to do nething at all and at the same time i feel like goin to private skool. like ice n wan. not that they influenced me or nething, its just.... ZANG.
pig even xpected me to FAIL her math prelim! when she said that, i felt utterly hopeless and my hopes and goals for a pass is g-o-n-e! i felt so degraded and ego bruised. talk about being confident... even that looks like bullshit to me!
when will i get out of this shell??? i really wanna get out and go somewhere, but i need somehting to jump-start me. the countdown board makes me even stuck where i already am... dammit... and i freak when i see caryn doin so freaking well now, when she used to slack all day long, hogging her computer 24/7.
i wish i have her sense-of-urgency attitude!
oh my merciful God, what is wrong with me?? please give me determination, peaceful state of mind and willpower to strive and excel in my studies! please....
and gurls.... don be like me.


A nakajima said Hello at 6:25 PM

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